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Series: :The Awakening of Silence
Shadow Wall Gazing

As hard as it is for ones mind to be come still. the process only gets worse when to try to force your mind into stillness- a state of having no identification with your thoughts.

I tried my hand at wall gazing as in Chan or the Zen School, and found my self getting absolutely nowhere. One is supposes to sit erect facing a fall and just start perceiving non-duality by realizing the wall is staring back at you.

I tried to do wall-gazing for the past 2 days. and today something strange happened. i was sitting facing the wall, and apparently there was a window behind my back and the sunlight was just flooding into the room.and i noticed something , a shadow was being cast on the wall before me, and the shadow was a very hazy one, i could actually see many layers of the shadow being superimposed on each other. and there i was looking at a very opaque but not sharp image of mine. it was very unexpected , and i started to observe the shadow , and i notice that i could sit there and just gaze at the shadow for a really long time. I guess the mind it self just gave up arguing and complaining about a shadow of the very body which it had successfully deluded to be identified with it. At last! victory of the identification and the conditioning, albeit a very temporary one. but the fruits of such a dis-identification are very high indeed.

and so i have been shadow-wall-gazing for sometime today, and i feel its a great exercise to attain stillness , especially when the mind is very very restless.

Comments (3)

On April 23, 2009 at 5:45 PM , Tao said...

Is this really the teaching to "see the wall looking back" ?

It seems such a dual notion for Zen, can you clarify please?

On April 23, 2009 at 7:52 PM , Sachin Modeel said...

Well i have known of wall gazing only though the series of dharma talks [audio files] from , and a few books i had read randomly.

u can look up a series of talks called "Tangling eyebrows with the zen masters" by Padmavajra at

now i cant testify if his views are authentic or not, but i can only say that i had learned about wall gazing there.

well i can assure u that the view which was said By Padmavajra is not a dual notion, cause in that audio file he clearly explains why that is a non-dual perception... i think u can listen to that file...

here is the link to the wall gazing lecture

and here is the link to the entire series of lectures called "Tangling Eyebrows with Zen Masters", of which the "wall-gazing" lecture is a part of.

i hope i cleared your doubt.
as for the what the teaching really is, (as an inexperienced person) i don't think i am qualified to give an opinion about it.

thanks for your interest,
do leave a comment in reply.

On April 24, 2009 at 11:15 PM , Tao said...

thanks, plenty of interesting thing there.